Please tell me I am not the only wierdo still zooming 90 mph!!

Well, Im here. Living on a boat sounds so nice, why did you decide to rent a room? I was on pretty much of every night for a while now and just kind of roaming the net. If it helps any, just let your aunt know you want to find a place of your own and you gotta do whats good for you. I know about the cat thing. My cat has cabin fever with not being able to stay out all night because its too cold. It seems like she waits until Im sleeping to be annoying. I stopped taking ambien for a while now and just let my body decide when its going to sleep. If I sleep through the day and not worry about it, I dont feel so depressed and guilty. I figured I got nothing else to do but try to get healthy so I may as well sleep or stay awake whenever. My boys came over yesterday morning while I was taking a nap and were asking questions. I barely remember any of it and they said I was mostly talking in my sleep. I hope sleep finds you soon and more hope that you can get your problems resolved. - Ronda

Thank you for the advice, I did take some of it! I told her in a polite way that I was working on finding my own place, and she has so far been happy about it! What a relief! She even took me to look at a place, gave me some furniture, and helped me further by turning the electric on in her name so I had less a deposit to pay. She does not let me sleep during the day, gets mad when I do, and I think my staying up all night bothers her more than the cat, the bugs, the rodents, and her renting the tv, pc monitor, and fridge do me. I never knew she still owed so much on her van, was stealing money from another roommate who knows, but cannot fend for himself, and she says she was going to rent the fridge even before I moved in. She has zero $ throughout the month, I was her cash cow along with Tim, now I am moving out. Yes I would have stayed on my boat had I known about a few key factors which she withheld until after I moved in. On the boat I could sleep when my body needed it too, I did not have the stress of worrying about how I effected another in my daily living habits, and no one tried to make me feel differently than I am or do already. I have my own severe issues to deal with. At least this way I do not have to give her a reason, there was no fight, and we remain friends. Peace and Hope, John

Thats way cool, John! I hope your new apartment works out well for you. I was helping out my mom as best I could last summer after she had some mini strokes, mostly there for company than anything. But, I knew I was annoying her and my dad with my bad sleep habits. Well, now you got your place all to yourself and hopefully the stress you were feeling helps out with your other issues. Take care, be well!

Hey
I'm 52 y.o and living with my parents!!!!

I had the endless nights without sleep you're referring to.
I call the thoughts the "what ifs" and they can cycle around my head ...endless night hours staring at the TV ...Too tired and upset during the day to clear up the B.S...

Hopefully you have your meds straightened out.

I think I get my insomnia/hypersomnia from my untreated PTSD. My brain got re-wired from working hours upon hours in the emergency response field. Oh, I have my own house, I was just staying a few nights out of the week so my dad could take care of the family business when mom was sick. Its just my daughter and I at home. I was fighting the insomnia and taking ambien but that left my head strung out during the waking hours so I weened myself off it. But, I do understand what youre saying about the constant "what ifs" and racing thoughts. Its almost akin to OCD, in a way. And, oh yes, on my worst days, I feel catatonic from sleep deprevation and cant get anything done, very frustrating indeed!

Up late but with friends tonight.

I take the ambien only when it gets really bad, but then my Aunt gets upset when I sleep all day. She wants me to do things inside and out around the house, plus I think keep her company too. I really just was looking for a room to rent, and be friendly. I had to move off the boat, sad, as it was my dream, but my health my it some days impossible to very very difficult to climb in and out to get basic supplies. I would lay there numb running low on or out of meds, fresh water, food, and other supplies. When I had others' get my supplies for me, a few used my debit card fraudulently to the tune of $946.10. Because I was handicap, it was easy for them to take advantage of me. The police made no arrests, and the bank took back the temporary credit out of my December check leaving me only $175 to live on for the month. So living on the boat was tougher even still for me with ailments, no money, no dingy, no vehicle, and my power wheelchair stuck onboard. I was already looking for a room to rent, and when a room came open at my Aunt's house it seemed like a good idea at first, but then...well, it really is terrible. Argh! 3AM wish I was sleeping like the rest of, well nearly rest of, the World. Hope and Peace, John

Dang, that's just awful! You know, ppl who do stuff like that have karma to answer to. So sorry that happened to you. Did you recover your power chair? Sometimes things happen for a reason and now you'll at least have your own place to move about and be independent without having to worry about your money. I know, its almost 3 here but I just woke up from an hour nap but Im gonna try to not make it an endless night. Well, I guess its time for another hot cup of tea and see what that does for me. Be well!

I got my power chair, thank you Lord for helping me get my most prized possession Pronto M91 w/ Seat Raise safely off the boat!!! I actually drove it home most of the way last week 16 miles from the Gordon Lightfoot concert when the last bus ran early and I did not make the 2 mile trip from the concert hall to the bus stop in time! Sooo, from 10:37pm to 9am, I rode my wheelchair home stopping three times to recharge the batteries then catching 2 local buses once I got into Pasco County. 4:44am...Argh! I try not to think of karma, I just wish they would not do it again, and have peace in their heart. We will all recover from Life's bumps, and bruises, wishing the cycle to continue onto someone else only breeds hate back into our own hearts. Forgive and forget, learn from it, but wish for a peaceful journey, and continue on yours'...It's what the good Lord would have wanted. I am going for a walk (powerchair ride) now cause sleep has eluded me once again this star filled night. Peace and hope, John

You are the ultimate Gordon Lightfoot fan! Glad you got your chair back. Well, I guess the insomina/hypersomnia is the least of my worries at the moment. My fibro is flaring and Im just concentrating on staying warm and comfortable. Do you ever feel so tired but you dont want to go to sleep? That is how I feel right now and I dont understand why that is. Just want to shake this down feeling and the lack of interest.